My Future "sportsters"

"WHOA" ..after him throwing the football lol

The Big Apple at Christmastime

Scott and I took the kids to the city yesterday. Was cold, but we enjoyed it. Went to see the Macy's windows and the tree of course..went to a restaurant next to the tree, City Lobster. We were lucky enough to be seated right away. We did alot of walking so I didn't care where we went. It was very nice and of course City prices-$150. Then we took a bike cab to FAO, kids played on the "BIG" floor piano. That is a fun toy store. I lost a few pictures from my camera..the kids on the piano and next to the "Lego Spongebob" and Lego R2D2 and CP3O. I was PISSED lol. It was a big day of "firsts" for Richie. It was nice :)

Growing up

I miss his hair lol

Tired

I cannot wait till bedtime. Waiting for Ashlee to finish watching How the Grinch Stole Christmas and Richie is watching The Bad News Bears, breaking training lol.

I didn't sleep too well last night. My eyes are slits. Christmas is coming and fast it seems. Every year it seems to come faster. I'm sure it's society just rushing everything and making you panic. Sunday we are taking the train to the city and doing the windows and see the tree. Hoping all goes well. Have to get to the mall w/ the kids for a Santa Pic.

Goodbyes are never easy

I was in Farmingdale today and of course had to pass my Mom's again. I drove past Friday night around midnight and the lights were on and I seen men standing in the living room. My old room was lit and the dumpster had the downstairs panaling sticking out. Today when I passed ( 3 times )I noticed some more changes. The front door was propped open and I seen them ripping up the carpet on the stairs and the walls seemed to be stripped. The road is so busy even with the 3 times passing I couldn't see how the kitchen ( right at the top of the stairs) looked. It is painful, why do i even do this. But how could you not? Curiosity kills the cat. It could be good though, helps me to get out some emotions. Crying is cleansing. It makes me sad though and makes me miss mom even more. Call me crazy but I am thinking about going Trick or Treating there w/ the kids next Halloween. I wonder if that "smell" will be gone and what it would look like inside. I am going to go park across the street with binoculars 1 night too lol. Nuts I know.

Happy Birthday Mom!

The Broken Chain


We little knew that morning that God was going to call your name. In life we loved you dearly. In death we do the same. It broke our hearts to lose you. You did not go alone, for part of us went with you the day God called you home. You left us peaceful memories. Your love is still our guide. And though we cannot see you, you are always at our side. Our family chain is broken and nothing seems the same, but as God calls us one by one, the Chain will link again.

Being a woman lol

Crampy, cranky, bloated, tired..gotta love it. Yucky day out today. Dropped kids off at school and ran to Target, of course. Ashlee has pictures today, AFTER LUNCH..geez, can't wait to see how they turned out lol. I want to get Christmas shopping done, did a pretty good start. The kids are done except 1 thing for Richie, which is out of stock and can't find right now. And November just started @@. I tried to go low key this year with the kids since they have so much crap as it is, it still looks like too much. But hopefully not as much as in the past. The way I justify it is this: I am the only one who spoils them so it's ok. I take the place for grandparents. I try not to spoil them but around Birthdays and Christmas it is hard not to. Well that's that. Finally getting over this cold and I am hoping no more sickness for awhile.

I met Rosie!

I finally got to meet Rosie O'Donnell! I love her ( triple love her ) lol. I have been such a fan of hers for so long, since she was the host to VH1 spotlight then really felt like I knew her after her show started. Followed her through her magazine/blog and The View. Her blog has grown so much in the past year or so. Alot of people don't like her, but I love her haha.

Jenine came too! Another great experience together!!!!

Pumpkin Picking